I write this from a year ago.

practically of a year ago when I was beginning this site. I had plans before 2020 to earn a web design certificate and go beyond my graphic design degree. Life changed a lot that year and it worked out better since I put my time into this project instead. This allowed me to both learn a lot of web design as well as play a bigger role in content creation. In 2019 I listened to an album a lot by someone I grew up with about his childhood. He looks back at it from the perspective as an adult. Those songs ended up influencing me a lot subconsciously when I began work on this a year later. (“Phoenix” by Pedro the Lion.)

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In 2018 I was at a concert and the person next me was asking me about what I wanted to accomplish in life. It occurred to me after this discussion that much of my current line of work wasn’t what I ultimately set out for. It wasn’t what I dreamed about in the 90s before planning on my life’s path.

There is this talk by Alan Watts that got me thinking; “And after-all if you do really like what you are doing, it doesn’t matter what it is, you can eventually become a master at it. The only way to become a master is to be really with it. And then you will be able to get a good fee for whatever it is. Somebody is interested in everything and anything you can be interested in will find others.”

When explaining how much importance to put into what you get paid he said “If you chase after money you will spend your whole life completely wasting your time.” It is so easy to get caught in that trap. Like that line from The Verve's 1997 hit "Tryna make ends meet, you're a slave to money then you die" or the more optimistic and underrated Shawn Mullins deep cut "I don't reckon I'll be Makin it big, You know it's hard to get rich off a tout of coffee house gigs" And he said "yeah, but ain't it a blessin To do what you want to do..."

There is a certain non-linear approach to this project. In the movie extras to the 1993 film “A Long Day Closes” the director describes his decision for why he chose to make the movie so random. Simply put he described that is how memories happen in real life. There is no clear structure to a dream and that is how much of this project works.

On the closing track of the first Pearl Jam album the singer who is an avid surfer belts out the line “I’ll ride the wave where it takes me.” That lyric comes back to me perhaps more than any other when I put this material together. Perhaps some would think that randomness would cause me to wander aimlessly but I find it has given me more focus than I’ve had in years.